🌺 How I got my MOJO back 💪
I admit to hitting a low point. It really does take quite a lot to shake my indomitable will. After 6 straight days of nausea & projectile fluids shooting uncontrollably out of every orifice of my body, I drove myself to the Emergency department yesterday on the advice of my primary care doctor. My work-up included a new CT Scan which revealed 3 things:
1. The large tumor in my abdomen has grown measurably since my previous scan on 4 June. I have named this turd “Sneaky Bastard”
2. Now there is an ulcer in my stomach. Whee!!! More fun!!
3. Ascites – this is fluid in my abdominal cavity which causes bloat, shortness of breath & General Discomfort. Basically I look like & feel & waddle like I am about 10.5 months pregnant. As if Cancer isn’t sexy enough on its own, Heyy, Boys, look at me ; )))
So I was already feeling rather disgruntled & discouraged when I arrived to my scheduled Chemo treatment at 9am today. A standard check of my blood pressure reveals it is shockingly high. My Oncologist explained we would have to postpone the treatment for a week until my blood pressure is under better control. I tearfully begged & pleaded to be given a chance to get it lowered & proceed. You see, my way of thinking is to blast as much Chemo as possible as quickly as possible at my mortal enemy Sneaky Bastard. But my Doctors must weigh this against how much my weakened heart can handle. However, she brilliantly agreed to let me try. I was given a private room and WITH THE SHEER FORCE OF MY WILL I got my BP down to 124 over 83 which is fabulous for me. Okay there might have been a tiny bit of help from Lisiniprol & Ativan & a short nap, but the point is, within 1.5 hours my BP was within acceptable limits. My Chemo treatment proceeded without further delay. I also went home with additional anti nausea Meds & more importantly RENEWED STRENGTH! I am determined to defeat Sneaky Bastard. This turd does not know who he is dealing with! I am going to shrink him & crush him with the sheer force of WILLPOWER! (And Chemo of course, I’m not crazy!)
The point of this story is NEVER GIVE UP! Sometimes you have to skate through rough patches to get to the smooth ice.
Thank you to my Wonderful Team of HCP’s at Hematology & Oncology & Portsmouth Regional Hospital. These dedicated caring people go over & above the call of duty everyday. How lucky can I get? 💜💜
Thank you to my amazing friends who have held my hand, cried with me, laughed with me when I shit my pants & just don’t have the word quit in them either. I am so truly blessed. I’m looking at you Coleen Magowan
🙏🌺💕
Thank you to strangers & kindred spirits who have reached out to me from every corner when I expected it the least but needed it most 💞
Love ❤️ makes the world 🌎 go around!
Look out Sneaky Bastard, I’m coming for you & I am loaded for bear.💪
Pam's Blog 